Humbug.

Oh jeez, I haven't been on here in a while... So I turned 18, and I moved out for a week. I'm back home now, I guess I just wasn't ready. I feel odd though. Like im not suppose to be here. I don't have a car yet :/ surprise surprise, right? Sigh. I hate public transportation. Work is bizarre. New guy manager, his name is Che Guevara. (We call him Chuck). He's alright, im not much of a fan yet. I want a new job...

On the 27th the Ring Ling Bros are coming. Sam and I will be out there protesting every day, three times a day. We're so excited!

Come out and support the cause  :)

Updateishism.

Sooooo, yeah. Haven't posted much lately. I guess ill start with Fright Nights. I went with Christine, Matt, Damien, and Laissette. At first we were terrified, and Matt was trying to shove us into the houses. But we procrastinated until more friends came. (Bigger crowd, smaller scare factor). Haha. After the first one everything was fine. We all held hands like little girls and made the boys go first. It was really fun.

Cotton Candy Fetish.

Christine, Matt and I went to go see Paranormal Activity 3 at City Place... We had to get a refund on our tickets. Everyone was so loud and kids were running up and down the isles pants-ing  each other, there was no way for us to watch enjoy the movie. So we walked around and went in some stores. It was nice.

 The couple.

 My lady.

 Beals.

Intrigued.

 Fort.

Herb ice pops.

Green Goodness.

This weeks inching by like a snail... I've been working in the mornings mostly. I tanned for the first time in a long time yesterday, it felt sooo nice! I forgot that feeling. School is okay, my economics teacher finally took time out of her busy schedule to call me back. She is pretty... sturdy..? Just unpleasant overall. She talked fast and made me scared to ask questions. Was she in a hurry or does she really just hate her job? Doesn't matter, I only have to talk to her on the phone once a month. Oh well. My computer has been extremely slow. I have to keep moving the mouse for it to move. It's irritating.
Today I sat around mostly.. I played with Kenny for a little. My mom stopped at Whole Foods for me on her way home. YES! She got me some ingredients and some goodies. My mom's insane. Really. For my birthday she wants to go to Lips for breakfast. (It's a drag queen show). If she's okay with it, I guess I am too. Who knows, maybe it'll be fun. Hmm, yea pictures...

 Green Stuff, yum.

 My little monkey.

 Improvement.

 Christine made this for me a while ago.

Goodies.

Laterrrrrrrrrr.

BowlingForStircrazy.

This past week has been pretty busy. Tuesday Christine, Matt, Lyall, Deeann, and I went bowling. I'm afraid to stick my fingers in the ball. (Especially after I looked over and saw the man next to me slobber all over his fingers before he bowled). Eww. I was just kind of throwing the ball. Everyone thought I was going to break the floor. Haha. It was fun. I planned on taking picture, but I got stuck in the rain right before we went...
 Saving is going well still, not saving as much as I could though.. (like always). I'm trying.
After work today Christine and I went to Stir Crazy. And it was delicious. Nouf' said. We went around the mall a little bit and just chatted about bizarre things as usual. It was nice to have some girl time. When I got home my mom and I went to target in search of bras and nail supplies. I walked out with a manicure set, nail polish, a leaf bowl that looks more like an ash tray, some cute fall pots to put plants in, hair necessity's, a lighter, gatorade, blue goodness, and im sure there's something im forgetting. Point is I went in for bras and nail stuff and left with the things I just listed. We ran into Christine and her hubby Matt. They were grocery shopping. I love living so close to my best-friend. It's nice to run into faces that you like.
I spent forever doing my nails, and im pretty proud of my work.
Tomorrow, I plan on getting a lot of school work done, and I have work from 4-10...Which should be awesome after we gave out that 20% off coupon. ugh. Kill me now....

 Veggie Growth.

 Please stop letting your dog piss in the elevator asshole.

 My Kennydoll.

 Micro pig, I want one.

 Color looks better in person. I swear.

Stircrazy.

Seal.

My schooling online finally started. hurray. all of my teachers have the most bizarre last names.  Such as "KnickerBocker". She's the only one who actually called me, and she was extremely hyper. But I could tell that she really care which was comforting. I like that I get to decide my own fate with this, in means that I get to decide how much work I do and when I get to finish. It's really nice and has relieved me of so much pressure. My boss started letting me work mornings which is a nice change. It seems to go by a lot faster.

I've been saving well, I could do better though. Christine just got a new car, which gave me some motivation. That and having to walk to work in this hot weather is horrible! In Florida a car is definitely a necessity. Yeah yeah, im working on it.

I've been trying to read more as an alternative to buying things. It's helping so far. and im enjoying it. I wish time would speed up for a little while. the future just sounds so much better than the now. I want to finish school, a car, a better job, to move out...all the things anyone my age should want. it's just not happening fast enough.

I love asian babys.

Nightmare.

Online school has been such a pain. I haven't been able to start my classes because none of the live orientation times are doable for me. I'm always at work. There was one at 11:00 but downloading Java made me late, so they wouldn't let me in. Now I have to wait until tomorrow...sigh. My mom's not going to be happy. I just want to finish this stuff already... Saving for a car is going good again, not as much as id like but enough to make me feel satisfied. Ugh, just kill me now.

Grow Inspiration.

Approach.

I'm pretty disappointed in myself. After I got paid I managed to only save $20. That is horrible. Where did my money go? I bought my mom a facial for her birthday, but I should have still had more to save...I couldn't tell you were it went, even if I wanted to. Tisk Tisk Alexx. 

I went to karaoke again on Wednesday, didn't sing, but I had fun. Christine and Luis sung a grease song. It was hilarious. They are awesome. The only downfall of the night was when a magician came to our table and asked my friends if he could show (me)a magic trick. Do I really look that young? Or was that just how he started his act? His tricks were stupid and his jokes were lame, but my friends seemed to enjoy him. 

I qualify for flvs to finish high school online, im just waiting to be accepted into a class now. Should be started by the end of this week, I hope. So all week ive been sitting at home all day and working at night. Kind of boring, im going to pick up on my reading again, im half way through on about 3 books. This would be a good time to finally finish them. 

I bought Kenny a ball to roll around in so I wouldn't have to worry about him getting into anything around the house. I don't know if he doesn't like it or if he just doesn't get it. When I put him in it he just stares at me and whines. Maybe he'll use it some day. At least Dev's chinchilla loves it. Chinchillin thinks it's funny to chase us when he's in it. He's become such a social little fellow. I love him. I wish he liked kenny as much as kenny likes him. But he just tries to bite and spray him. Oh well.

Sam's coming to pick me up soon, I'm sleeping at her house. it'll be nice to get out of mine. I've been trapped in it all week. 

 Christine and I at karaoke night.

Can't be satisfied.

Haligh Days.

The phone slips from a loose grip
Words were missed then, some apology
I didn’t want to tell you this
No, it’s just some guy she's been hanging out with
I don’t know, the past couple weeks I guess
Well, thank you and hang up the phone
Let the funeral start
Hear the casket close
Let’s pin split-black ribbon to your overcoat
Well, laughter pours from under doors
In this house, I don’t understand that sound no more
Seems artificial, like a T.V. set

Well, haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh
This weight it must be satisfied
You offer only one reply
You know not what you do
But you tear and tear your hair from roots
Of that same head you have twice removed now
A lock of hair you said would prove
Our love would never die
Well ha ha ha

I remember everything
The words we spoke on freezing South Street
And all those mornings watching you get ready for school
You combed your hair inside that mirror
The one you painted blue and glued with jewelry tears
Something about those bright colors
would always make you feel better
But now we speak with ruined tongues
And the words we say aren’t meant for anyone
It’s just a mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance
But there was once you

You said you hate my suffering
And you understood
And you’d take care of me
You'd always be there
Well where are you now?

Haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh
The plans were never finalized
But left to hang like yarn and twine
Dangling before my eyes
As you tear and tear your hair from roots
Of that same head you have twice removed now
A lock of hair you said would prove
Our love would never die

And I sing and sing of awful things
The pleasure that my sadness brings
As my fingers press onto the strings
In yet another clumsy chord
Haligh, haligh, an awful lie
This weight would now be satisfied
I'm gonna give you only one reply
I know not who I am

But I talk in the mirror
To the stranger that appears
Our conversations are circles
Always one sided
Nothing is clear

Except we keep coming back
To this meaning that I lack
He says the choices were given
Now you must live them
Or just not live
But do you want that?

Schoolnonsense.

This first week back at school has been...lame. All of my classes are far too easy. English class for example, we've been learning about nouns all week..yea didn't we learn this when we were 7? i only need three credits to graduate. My mom set up an appointment with the guidance counselor so I can finish up those credits online and enroll in college in January rather than wasting my time. So hopefully this will work out. If not I might rip out all of my hair. Work has been the same, I can't wait to get a car. I've been doing a good job with my savings! It's just taking forever. My birthday is coming realllly soon, im so excited! I'm going to get a little snakey! Christine is working on getting one herself. I don't really know what else im doing for my birthday, besides getting a ball python and skipping school that day to go to the beach. I'm sure Christine has something up her sleve, that's just the kind of person that she is. Yesturday she left a banana in my locker at work.mmm. haha. Ugh, the new girl had pink eye. I sanatized my hands so many times! I have nothing else to rant about, laterrr.

Workworkwork.

Ive been working so much lately. I'm trying really hard to suck it up and save for my car as fast as possible, I have to say that im proud of my self. I know im doing a good job. But working so much is just more exhausting then I expected. It'll be worth it when I reach my goal though. It's just taking forever. I wish I got paid once a week instead of twice a month. Saving is hard to do. But I finally found the motivation deep down in my bones somewhere. It could be the fact that im going to be 18 soon, and if I don't have a car by then...I would feel like a total loser. Working so much really makes me feel like an adult. I know that sounds kind of gay, but it's true. I am going to be a legal adult in november, it's coming pretty fast. SCARY! I'm excited though. I've been waiting to be 18 ever since I can remember. I never like being a kid. My mom thinks im an "old soul". Whatever. Like I said working a lot is horribly tiring...I'm trying some new sleepy time tea tonight, hopefully it's good.

Night.

Anthony Green, yea this ^ man is my hero.

KaraokeNight.

Clematis karaoke at duffys was a lot of fun with Christine, Matt, and Luis. I've never been to anything like it. Definitely going again sometime. I was horrible, but whatever. Chistine and her husband did an awesome job. So funny! Love my friends.

 Fuku.haha

 Christine and I.

 Christine and Matt (So cute)

 Luis xp

 ^ Yea my bestfriend is amazing ^

Long.

So today was the longest that ive ever worked. And it was....Horrible. I was there for about 11 hours (kill me). And I swear it's a full moon or something, it has to be..because everyone and their mother chewed me and my co workers out today. We had a store meeting at 9 a.m. it was interesting, not what I expected. i thought I was going to get lectured and possibly scolded. But we just went over basic rules, money verification, sexual harassment, and did some role playing. It wasn't so bad. There was no yelling at anyone. And Shani even got a $25 gift card. I just feel like the living dead. 

I sell shoes ( If you didn't know)

In other news, I haven't made a blog in a while. Christine and I had the best warped tour ever. We had gigantic snow cones, and got to go on stage for BVB. The weather was just unbearable. It was soooo hot! I got the worst and most awkward sunburn ever, and Christine got zebra stripes ha ha. We won free tickets for an up coming Thrice show, and she challenged a little boy to a dance contest to win one for Matt (Christine's hubby). She won. My bestfriend is awesome. 

 Yea, life is good.

Jobber.

I would love a new job. But sadly I have no car..so that limits my options. I've had my job at Off Broadway shoes for 14 long months. and it just keeps getting worse. Who knew work could make someone so miserable. That is unless im working with Christine of course. I think ill wait until I turn 18 and maybe apply for some waitress jobs, or at Whole Foods whenever I get a car. sigh. I feel so anxious about making changes in my life. I wish school would start already so id have something to keep myself occupied. 

well im about done ranting here, later.

  Birthday Dress?

WholeFoodLife.

Today Christine and I went to Whole Foods for lunch. Mmm. It was SO good. And we went to alottttt of other places. It was quite a busy day. But I had fun. 

 

Bestie Burts Bees Love.

And by the way, holy shit Warped Tour tickets are expensive this year. It'll be worth it though. 

Night...

How.

How is Bank of America so stupid? Since I opened my account Ive already gone through three cards. Fail? Yes! I guess someone was trying to use my information to buy stuff on I tunes. And because of this my account is frozen or something because my paycheck isn't showing up and my savings are in the negatives....Fml right. Christine's going to take me by the bank tomorrow to straighten things out. This makes no sense. At least I get to go out to lunch with Christine and Diana tomorrow (If I have money).

I'm starting to think about where I want to get my tattoo placed. Random, I know. But ive been thinking about for the last week. I'm thinking my calf or my foot if it'll fit. Hmmmm.

Goodnight.

RainyDays.

It's suppose to be summer in Florida. But it's been cloudy and rainy just about every day. Today I think ill clean and maybe read a little.Tomorrow should be fun, Christine and I are going to Whole Foods for lunch. Then im sleeping at Sammy's house, she's getting her baby skunk tomorrow. My saving money thing isn't going so well still. My whole paychecks already spent and I haven't even got it yet. I need to get serious soon or ill never have a car (18 without a car = total failure).

Ugh.

People messaging me hateful shit that makes no sense on Facebook seems to be the latest trend. Old lady's that can't spell and really have no idea what they are talking about. And idiots being brainwashed and manipulated by other idiots. This town is going down hill fast, or maybe it has been down hill for a while and I just opened my eyes to it. I'd love to move very far away from all of the scum and stupidity that surrounds me. I can't walk out of my house without seeing someone that I could care less about or seeing something that reminds me of times that were a lie. I don't even want to leave my house anymore. Why would I? It's like everyone is talking backwards. Everyone speaks of the "good old days".. I lack good old days. Just about everything up until two days ago was complete bullshit. My life was ran by fear, uncertainty, and lies. And now I know what I want, I know who I am, I can stand my own ground, and im comfortable in my own skin. Anyone who tries to break me down, or hurt my feeling are seriously wasting their time. You're miserable, and I don't care. Harsh truth. Move on with your life, forget about me, and live. Because im not thinking about you. I'm not miserable, and ive already forgotten about you. I am ridiculously content right now.

Tomorrow I plan on reading and laying out in the sun. It'll be nice. I really need some color. and then I get to go to work with the lovely Christine. One of the only people who might ever understand me. She's so caring it's hard to believe. I am so lucky to have her in my life. We'll be old and drinking out of fine china in the future on my front porch. I see it.

Well, it's about two in the morning, im calling it a night.

Besty

Christine is the kind of best-friend that people dream of having. She's polite, honest, witty, and she keeps all of my secrets so well. We work together selling shoes, she makes work a lot more pleasant. And today while we were at work she had the best solution for our money saving problems. We're going  to with drawl all the money that we want to save up as soon as we get paid and save it in envelopes in this neat  locking cash box she got today. It's staying at her house so I can't tap into my money (my saving issues are more sever then hers). She has some self control. But we're both dangerous with plastic ha ha. So I will eventually have a car now. Love ya Chrisypoo.

Halloween.

Jezzus.

What a week this has been. I always thought that karma was stupid when anyone mentioned it, but now I am a heavy believer. Enough said. My future just keeps looking brighter every day, and im actually looking forward to summer ending and going back to school, this is going to be a good year. I can feel it. For the first time in my life I know who I am, and what kind of person I want to be. Finally getting rid of all the negative things that surround me.

I can't wait for tomorrow night with my girlys, Diana's going to have the most bad-ass birthday party ever! My friends really are great... And holy crap could Kenny get any cuter?!

 My love bug. <3

Summer & Such.

This summer feels different then the others before. I'm not sure why... Things are constantly changing around me. It feels like everyone is finding new things to be interested in, and I have been as well. I'm changing. I always said "I won't ever change." Especially when everyone older then I said that I would. Well, I failed to prove them wrong. But change isn't entirely horrid. Any-who, I heard that Circa Survive is working on a new CD, and I am incredibly excited! Because that means they'll be touring again starting around my birthday. God I love Anthony Green...

 (The last time I got to see him.)

 Luck and panic attacks.

 Blurry.

And ill leave you with this video I took. E>

Hmm.

This is new to me, and I really don't know how to go about it. But I am bored and it's something to do at the moment. Today I thought about having a jellyfish as a pet, so I looked it up on Google. It is possible! So for my birthday (in 9 months) I will be getting myself two moon jellyfish. I'm pretty excited! I'll be counting down the days...