Jobber.

I would love a new job. But sadly I have no car..so that limits my options. I've had my job at Off Broadway shoes for 14 long months. and it just keeps getting worse. Who knew work could make someone so miserable. That is unless im working with Christine of course. I think ill wait until I turn 18 and maybe apply for some waitress jobs, or at Whole Foods whenever I get a car. sigh. I feel so anxious about making changes in my life. I wish school would start already so id have something to keep myself occupied. 

well im about done ranting here, later.

  Birthday Dress?

WholeFoodLife.

Today Christine and I went to Whole Foods for lunch. Mmm. It was SO good. And we went to alottttt of other places. It was quite a busy day. But I had fun. 

 

Bestie Burts Bees Love.

And by the way, holy shit Warped Tour tickets are expensive this year. It'll be worth it though. 

Night...

How.

How is Bank of America so stupid? Since I opened my account Ive already gone through three cards. Fail? Yes! I guess someone was trying to use my information to buy stuff on I tunes. And because of this my account is frozen or something because my paycheck isn't showing up and my savings are in the negatives....Fml right. Christine's going to take me by the bank tomorrow to straighten things out. This makes no sense. At least I get to go out to lunch with Christine and Diana tomorrow (If I have money).

I'm starting to think about where I want to get my tattoo placed. Random, I know. But ive been thinking about for the last week. I'm thinking my calf or my foot if it'll fit. Hmmmm.

Goodnight.

RainyDays.

It's suppose to be summer in Florida. But it's been cloudy and rainy just about every day. Today I think ill clean and maybe read a little.Tomorrow should be fun, Christine and I are going to Whole Foods for lunch. Then im sleeping at Sammy's house, she's getting her baby skunk tomorrow. My saving money thing isn't going so well still. My whole paychecks already spent and I haven't even got it yet. I need to get serious soon or ill never have a car (18 without a car = total failure).

Ugh.

People messaging me hateful shit that makes no sense on Facebook seems to be the latest trend. Old lady's that can't spell and really have no idea what they are talking about. And idiots being brainwashed and manipulated by other idiots. This town is going down hill fast, or maybe it has been down hill for a while and I just opened my eyes to it. I'd love to move very far away from all of the scum and stupidity that surrounds me. I can't walk out of my house without seeing someone that I could care less about or seeing something that reminds me of times that were a lie. I don't even want to leave my house anymore. Why would I? It's like everyone is talking backwards. Everyone speaks of the "good old days".. I lack good old days. Just about everything up until two days ago was complete bullshit. My life was ran by fear, uncertainty, and lies. And now I know what I want, I know who I am, I can stand my own ground, and im comfortable in my own skin. Anyone who tries to break me down, or hurt my feeling are seriously wasting their time. You're miserable, and I don't care. Harsh truth. Move on with your life, forget about me, and live. Because im not thinking about you. I'm not miserable, and ive already forgotten about you. I am ridiculously content right now.

Tomorrow I plan on reading and laying out in the sun. It'll be nice. I really need some color. and then I get to go to work with the lovely Christine. One of the only people who might ever understand me. She's so caring it's hard to believe. I am so lucky to have her in my life. We'll be old and drinking out of fine china in the future on my front porch. I see it.

Well, it's about two in the morning, im calling it a night.

Besty

Christine is the kind of best-friend that people dream of having. She's polite, honest, witty, and she keeps all of my secrets so well. We work together selling shoes, she makes work a lot more pleasant. And today while we were at work she had the best solution for our money saving problems. We're going  to with drawl all the money that we want to save up as soon as we get paid and save it in envelopes in this neat  locking cash box she got today. It's staying at her house so I can't tap into my money (my saving issues are more sever then hers). She has some self control. But we're both dangerous with plastic ha ha. So I will eventually have a car now. Love ya Chrisypoo.

Halloween.

Jezzus.

What a week this has been. I always thought that karma was stupid when anyone mentioned it, but now I am a heavy believer. Enough said. My future just keeps looking brighter every day, and im actually looking forward to summer ending and going back to school, this is going to be a good year. I can feel it. For the first time in my life I know who I am, and what kind of person I want to be. Finally getting rid of all the negative things that surround me.

I can't wait for tomorrow night with my girlys, Diana's going to have the most bad-ass birthday party ever! My friends really are great... And holy crap could Kenny get any cuter?!

 My love bug. <3

Summer & Such.

This summer feels different then the others before. I'm not sure why... Things are constantly changing around me. It feels like everyone is finding new things to be interested in, and I have been as well. I'm changing. I always said "I won't ever change." Especially when everyone older then I said that I would. Well, I failed to prove them wrong. But change isn't entirely horrid. Any-who, I heard that Circa Survive is working on a new CD, and I am incredibly excited! Because that means they'll be touring again starting around my birthday. God I love Anthony Green...

 (The last time I got to see him.)

 Luck and panic attacks.

 Blurry.

And ill leave you with this video I took. E>